It gets the worst at night.

So things are good, and then things are bad. It's tough to say where I stand. I'm definitely happy that I'm working. It helps me keep myself from going totally insane, although I'd say I'm fairly close to that anyways.

We hung out for a second time and it was great we talked and laughed and had an overall enjoyable time. When I went to get off the train I went a little overboard and asked for a kiss, she moved back and said "I'm sorry but no" and I understood. We went our separate ways and I felt like shit. When I got home we talked for a little while and she assured me that it was okay. That she didn't want us to become something that we're not, and if we're not dating then we probably shouldn't be kissing. She explained that the time apart was very important and that we have to figure something out eventually. She's been great through all of this, and I've just been going crazy anyways. I'm going to get back to the way I was it'll just take time. In the meantime I need to focus on work and my other friends.

I am important.